The Drive

I don't know why I keep on drawing...I have a strong desire to improve my drawing skills...but I have no hope of being a professional artist. I lack confidence,and I have other personal flaws stopping me like my people /social phobia . And yet I yet I keep on drawing...I have tried to give up many times. I don't know where I get my inter strength from...

I just thought I'll have a career by now. I guess I have been living in the fantasy world too long...and it time to wake up. I'm never going have my dream job..heck it's now hard for to find a dead end job because of my phobia. Deep down inside I knew I'll never get anywhere,but I buried those thoughts...I'm my own enemy. It's my fault that I haven't made it far..

But I still have the drive to draw,to get better,but why? Who cares anyway?

I'm sorry I haven't upload my video yet..having problems with the laptop..like anyone reads my blogs anyway...